I am so angry, very very angry. And it’s not directed at anyone, it’s EVERYONE. I’m afraid my bodyy can’t take it anymore and I’m going to blow up like a christmas chimney. Don’t get me wrong, I have a new found ability to supress my anger by counting to 10. It works to supress the anger temporarily and prevent me from shouting at tom dick or harry that crosses my path at that instant. But bottling it all up is taking a toll on me. I have to vent my angry and I can’t seem to find a channel to do so healthy. While anger is fueled by hatred for many, it’s worrisome that gets me all shaken up. I worry about way way too many things. And the smallest thing sets me off.
I just hope that one day I’ll find an outlet good enough for me to not boil my blood so much that cancers start setting in.
